Screw Face

"Got a screw face all night all day
Screw face kids brothers aren't paid
Screw face means kid why you waste away
Screw face means get out my way
Screw face means you don't know me,
what you lookin at what's your beef?!?
Screw face means I'm not havin it
Screw face means I'm not a chief
Screw face means I'm not happy right now
Dat's why no smile was used
Screw face means I'm not pleased
Screw face means I'm not amused
Screw face means I jus wanna walk not talk
Screw face means I jus wanna leave
When I act off, aint my screw face, gimme space
Screw face means let me breathe!
-Dizzee Rascal, 'Stop Dat'"

Lives Valued at A Pittance

Done drank day-in to day-out and asked for more
Woke up, stayed-in, played-out around four
Had a rumble in my tummy which I chose to ignore,
And hit the spot blazin' haze 'n wildin out full bore -
But that was way back when
I was accustomed to jackin,
Frequent ho mackin -
Thug Life Passion
Crashin
For a moment just to do it again,
The cipher sacrament our only atonement for the sins
We'd only ride with our kin
Solemn belief in crew love
All us against the world
Livin the lives of Tru thugs
And ya, we knew blood
Ran cheap like kool-aid
So we respected those who took
And shit on those who paid
But I was coming of age
And wasn't destined for that -
Most of those people are locked up
Crackheaded or capped,
While I'm about to wrap
Up my first degree,
And I'm from a way of life to once a month
With the sticky gree’
And its so sad to me
That it was all a huge waste
Altho I'm thankful for the memories i've got and the Screw Face
But I don't pour a taste of every drink that i crack
Because they can't taste it where they are and They not coming back
So instead I stay on track to push an Ac
Fully legal
And further I leave the gat where its at and Avoid evil
Cuz Eagles only fly if they live to get older,
And for each one that dies I get a little bit colder,
My hatred for the system has gone from chip to boulder
So I can barely hold the weight as its pushing down my shoulders
But I -
Persevere for the ones who aren't here and the
Ones who won't get out for like 10 to 20 years
So I go heavy on the beers -
You'll never feel my pain:
I got a broken heart, bad eyes, and i'm legally insane
So don’t try to get in my brain
It’s a dark dangerous void –
And yes - the look you see in my eyes is paranoid
And yes – I may snap from being mildly annoyed
My poise
Stems from knowing that I’m an instrument of vengeance
The sword in the hands of all lives valued at a pittance
They should have given me a life sentence
For now we’ll claim remittance,
I’ll not stand with bound hands while my brothers remain victims.


Description:
Oh you know how it goes - first nostalgia takes you, then sadness, and finally self-righteousness.

The New York Times > Opinion > Op-Ed Columnist: Whose Team Am I On?

The New York Times > Opinion > Op-Ed Columnist: Whose Team Am I On?: "The Yankee ideal is: All cower before the greatness that is Rome."

Cower bitches - Cower.

Girl You Gotta Understand by particularshard

Description:


‘If you two can talk about the ex as an important part of your partner´s *past*, that is quite healthy. You shouldn´t have to pretend that nobody else ever existed in each others´ lives.

However, if your partner talks about her ex constantly, and especially if she compares you to him, then it´s time to address the situation. The main focus of you both should be your current relationship. This current relationship is unique, and has its own strengths and weaknesses. To compare it to any other relationship is asking for trouble. It´s time to really accept that the other relationship is done with, and that this one in your hands should be focused on.’




Girl You Gotta Understand
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Please don't think that I argue for the sake of the conflict,
That hasn't been me for at least a couple years
But don't you know I'll have trouble stayin cool on the calm shit
When you tell me 'don't get stuck on my fears?'
Because I used to be a Proud Boy growing to
A Proud Man
But lately I'm just Proud
And so as not to be a cowed Boy Ima be a loud Man
Because these are the states I'm allowed.
However underneath the beef my chief belief remains
That there must be a damn good reason for all the pain
And like the rain, you can see such reasons coming at you from where land meets sky -
Baby I'll be damned if I cry
Because I lied to myself and said things were cool
Just so I wouldn't have to argue with you
Over the years I've decided,
And Pardon the rule
That keeping up a lie can be harder than Truth
And if the proof
Is in the pudding
Than shouldn't we get to eating?
I don't know about you, but I don't stress over the fleeting.
Even, if the stress is what makes the thing leaving
I'd be remiss to sit pissed and quiet while I'm seething
Then grieving
All those regrets I could have set right yet ripe time was never the right time -
Like tryin to take your shooter without the right lime
It would pain me to a level just bordering on a crime
So look, i'm not the jealous type or the overzealous type
Unless of course I feel you try to gull a fella right?
Or as in this case, you can't leave the past alone,
And frankly can't cut ties with the cats you boned
But time has shone that isn't bad per se
Still I don't wanna hear about these guys every fucking day -
Especially because if they get in my way
I won't hesitate to knock they asses to next may
So like Aaliyah back in the day, Hey
'We Need a Resolution,'
Things have to adapt or die -
That's just evolution
And all my elocution
Can't change that fact
And it would take a revolution to change how I react,
To the way people act
And I'm not sure I'd want to
So just apply some tact
And don't prematurely end the hunt boo....

Elite Skills - Watch Me by particularshard

Elite Skills - Watch Me by particularshard

Sometimes I feel like I'm walking on the stage,
Like im words on the page
Or like im just a monkey in the cage
Rage in the zoo
Which is why its fuck this and fuck you
With my loose head wishing it just had one more screw
Cuz you the many and I'm the few
Making it much harder to know the next thing I'm gonna do
So watch me
Can you see the monkey on my back?
You gonna say somethin?
I may be chunky but not fat -
I'm not the flunky with the bat, in fact
I'm on the roof with a telescopic lens -
I pull the trigger and all your watching ends.
Reality bends in the space around me
And there wasn't much more than the Hate when they found me
And now wot hounds me
Is that sweet lover who held me tight
Back in the days when I was alone because I wasn't white
So I had to fight
For every scrap off the table
And so every night
I tried my best to scratch off the label
So like cable with a v-chip I wasn't quite right
But I got third-eye sight
And decided to live life just a bit more right -
To stop going to class every day with a knife.
Also to stop feeding off fury from the strife.
So like Lazurus I live again
Even though I'm doused in Sin
And I don't wanna be clean since its become like A friend
And friends can't just be abandoned
Everything I've done so far its had its hand in
But still I'm on the Highway to Heaven like
Michael Landon
So I keep boppin like Hanson
Because there is no other option
You can watch me or not
either way im not stopping
But trying to stop me'd have the 9 mil poppin
don't forget my ppl in the day called me the Throne
Because the shine that I shine is the brightest that's ever shone.
Watch me baby -
I'm the best that'll ever be known
And at the last call I might blast ya'll
So I can watch myself alone

Elite Skills - Watch Me by particularshard

Elite Skills - Watch Me by particularshard

Sometimes I feel like I'm walking on the stage,
Like im words on the page
Or like im just a monkey in the cage
Rage in the zoo
Which is why its fuck this and fuck you
With my loose head wishing it just had one more screw
Cuz you the many and I'm the few
Making it much harder to know the next thing I'm gonna do
So watch me
Can you see the monkey on my back?
You gonna say somethin?
I may be chunky but not fat -
I'm not the flunky with the bat, in fact
I'm on the roof with a telescopic lens -
I pull the trigger and all your watching ends.
Reality bends in the space around me
And there wasn't much more than the Hate when they found me
And now wot hounds me
Is that sweet lover who held me tight
Back in the days when I was alone because I wasn't white
So I had to fight
For every scrap off the table
And so every night
I tried my best to scratch off the label
So like cable with a v-chip I wasn't quite right
But I got third-eye sight
And decided to live life just a bit more right -
To stop going to class every day with a knife.
Also to stop feeding off fury from the strife.
So like Lazurus I live again
Even though I'm doused in Sin
And I don't wanna be clean since its become like A friend
And friends can't just be abandoned
Everything I've done so far its had its hand in
But still I'm on the Highway to Heaven like
Michael Landon
So I keep boppin like Hanson
Because there is no other option
You can watch me or not
either way im not stopping
But trying to stop me'd have the 9 mil poppin
don't forget my ppl in the day called me the Throne
Because the shine that I shine is the brightest that's ever shone.
Watch me baby -
I'm the best that'll ever be known
And at the last call I might blast ya'll
So I can watch myself alone

The New York Times > National > Truck Driver Spared Death in Smuggling of Immigrants

The New York Times > National > Truck Driver Spared Death in Smuggling of Immigrants

Why they don't kill people like this I'll never know. Bastard smuggles illegal aliens into the country, using their hope to extort them of wot little money they have, and then lets them suffocate. If thas not a good reason for capital punishment i just don't know wot could be. An they were unable to do it because they couldn't agree on the technicalities? Wasn't somebody there smart enough to realize that 'hey, we can't figure out exactly why, but somebody's got to die.'

Right. So I'm talking to this girl Lisa more and more often. The more I know about her, the more things start to like sketchy. She's a very nice girl, but the way she teases gets me a little pissed sometimes. Not to mention she has some social habits that I just can't approve of. Take for instance the list of guidelines i put down below.

My Rules for Successful Relationships
1. never be friends with an ex
2. never settle for second best with somebody
3. never commit to a girl you met while she was cheating
4. never give second chances
5. never play step-pop

Now she breaks rule one all the time. She lets guys break rules 2,4 and 5. Thas some dangerous stuff. Girls who make men stupid are likely to make me stupid, because i'm men. I'm gonna keep with it for the moment though, because I like danger, just like everybody else does....

They Pray And Pray On My Downfall

So last night was a narrowly avoided fiasco. Still all good tho. This chick Brook - man ya wanna talk about spoilage. I wanna say that that nigga Glen is a friggin hero to put up with that shit in the interests of friendship. Makes me guilty - Thas a good friend right there.

She was just on all this pointless bossy shit, and then was trying to get us out to this wack bar. Now mind you wen she started wanting to go to the bar everybody else was just kinda burnt - we needed some time to sober up or get down. At the end she apparently ended up going with Glen to yet another bar. Shady tho, cuz i found where her supposedly best friend was chilling tonite, Christina, and she didn't wanna go there - guess deep down she kno's who don't like her, even if she talks a good game.

Ok, so about being a good friend. I don't owe this girl shit - I've known her for a minute, but she's still just a trick. Completely expendable. However, I should start being nicer to Heather. Its unfair for me to dip out just cuz things get tough. With all the shady people out there, i suppose you gotta take care of the ones who generally have your best interests at heart, even if they have a bad time putting them into effect.

So this Lisa chick is great. No complaints. I've found myself lookin for flaws - well alternately while looking real hard not to find flaws. Perhaps they aint even there. Really doesn't matter. I like this trajectory right now - im down for coasting to wotever. Its all good. I have such a horrible weakness for island women....

Wired News: Are Nanobacteria Making Us Ill?

Wired News: Are Nanobacteria Making Us Ill?


This stuff right here? Fascinating. 100 times smaller than bacteria and still replicating with a biological life-cycle. I keep up with this particular line of research because I always wondered where and how people draw the line between life and inert. I mean, even some simple molecules are self-replicating, and even the smallest atom has desire. If you think about it, this could be the first step in a scientific understanding of the oneness of all matter. If we are all life, then we are all also inert and all that. I feel a lot of comraderie with my hydrogen atom brethren.

The Latest Love Poem

Its not specifically directed, but perhaps specifically inspired. Also, have you ever heard Mariah Carey's 'Dream Lover?' Bring that down like 50% and you have about where I'm at....

Crimes of Love

I want you like the trees want the sun,
I'm always reaching.
Be a lesson to a Fortunate Son
Who's always speaking.

I long for anything you might give:
Prescient addict.
I would die for the chances you live,
The erotic so tragic.

Each night I sleep that I could wake to your smile
A fever dream
And I'd give up sleep just to taste you a while,
A caress of steam.

To offer much is to small return:
Cold world's defeat.
I am the fire, needs have I must burn.
Bask in my heat.

I've got no motive besides Spring's sweet melody,
Who says that its wrong?
Let me sing you to sleep, its my predicate felony.
Join in my song.


Description:
I can only truly make love when I’m in love, otherwise I’m just going through the oceans ya dig? A stupid friend wishing to be more recently said to me that she had a lot of love to give – I laughed because she had it wrong. Myself I give a lot of love to have the one (or less preferably few) who takes me is as my own flesh.

The Latest Flow

The trees reach for the sky as they guzzle the sun
As I scream to the Lord, 'They can't muzzle me son!'
Let the government come,
And bring all the King's men
Because I live life several hours ahead like England
But I bubble like the Continent
With vowels and troubled consonants,
And I've been waiting to piss on these fools like
I'm incontinent
But still I wait–on
Because I want more than Day-tons;
In fact I’m like Phaet-on
I want the sun to play on.
I can’t settle till I got more than I deserve and that’s my word,
And go down in history as ‘a brilliant bastard with some nerve,’
For going from some nerd
To the last word that’s heard –
Become the living Word like talking nouns and verbs
And I want to be referred to as
‘The best that done-did-it’
In plaques, on the shrines, at the places where I shitted
I admit it:
I got an addiction to grandiosity but only because my brain
Is always working at such a high velocity
It’s got to be a sign that I’ve got a golden mind,
So I’ll be damned if any hand but my own ends up holding mine
And my shine
These days rivals the celestial –
I got myself just in the door like the vestibule
And terrestrial concerns
Get clipped like side-burns
Because knowledge is power and mine grows
With every bit that I learn.
I affirm,
That its unfair for me to walk around
But what else can a predator do but stalk the grounds?
The talking sounds
I hear in protest, sound no less
Than Pharisees hating me and plotting on my death
I can’t rest –
Not until I feel my deal is finished
And the ambition to which I listen is at least somewhat diminished,
So fuck beginners!
I’m a practiced professional
And I’ll torch you on your porch
With my dramatic confessionals
Like I’m blessing you,
Prometheus brought flames from the mount
And I’ve been nice enough to bring the people flames from my mouth
No doubt



Good god almighty.

Underused Vocab: Love

Many four-letter words have been trivialized:
evil, shit, blow, etc.
Colloquially, all these words routinely mean their opposite -
They aren't alone either.

As a special note, 'sanction' is its own antonym.

Ok but back to love.
Love never means its opposite.
It has an opposite word that means its opposite, 'Hate'
And hate never means love.
Perhaps this level of absolutism is why I shy from using such words.
I've decided however, this is a mistake.


1) 'Love' is a good word to say to people who brighten your day.
2) The repeated mental application of the word 'love' to a situation you merely like makes it merely enjoyable. (try it)
3) Showing love at every oppurtunity endears you to your fellows.
4) Telling people that you 'love' them unequivically shows you regard them in a positive light.
5) 'Love' is truly between and within all of us, and should thus be acknowledged.

Just a public service announcement from your friendly neighborhood shard.